Ode To The Single Mom

Playgrounds depress me
No one can really understand
The loneliness of children’s voices
When no one else is around

Years of pushing swings and
Climbing ladders
Trudging through the sweltering hours
Carving out my solitude
In boxes of sand
A year in a minute
Every year just one more day

I am not strong
I am not wonder woman
Lacking foresight
Sound judgment
A twist of fate
I run, pushing the merry-go-round
Ashes ashes
We all

Fall

Down

Unloose the Hinges

There’s no way to explain
The thoughts racing in my head
Try to extinguish the flame
Unloose the hinges instead

Save for a grace granted in time
And chance floats in on a whim
Tap the edges in place
Hold your breath; step out on the limb

How suspect we become
When the sun shimmers on the snow
Slowly pull down the shade
Better the devil we know

What Is Humility?

As a Catholic I believe in humility. The way of the cross is unconditional love. That is my measuring rod. All of our attempts at theology, organized religion, spirituality, worship, adoration are manifestations of our imperfect attempts to understand that which is beyond our comprehension, a God who loves unconditionally.

The way of the cross is unconditional love and when I hear words and view actions by individuals or groups, I filter it all through the unconditional love of God. A professor in seminary taught us to look at scripture through the light of the cross. He believed that the Bible is the word of God about God’s way and the imperfect way of man. Through the light of the cross we can differentiate. We can distinguish words and actions which demonstrate God’s unconditional love from words and actions which are emblematic of how humans see and act in the world. To me, humility is to step aside, say who am I to judge, and let the light of unconditional love shine through what I say and do. This is why I’m such a fan of Dorothy Day who said “The Gospel takes away our right forever, to discriminate between the deserving and undeserving poor” and Mother Teresa who said “Three things in human life are important; the first is to be kind. The second is to be kind. The third is to be kind”. These two women may be canonized saints one day…ironically because it is the last recognition they would have ever wanted.

I saw this wonderful film about the life of Saint Francis. In his lifetime he witnessed the growth of his religious order into the thousands. Not being an administrator, the governance of so many brothers was beyond his ability. At one general meeting of all the brothers, Cardinal Ugolino di Conti was also present. There were disagreements among the brothers about what direction the order should take and Saint Francis was overwhelmed. When questioned by the cardinal, Saint Francis simply knelt down, with his face to the ground. He cupped dirt in his hands and rubbed it on his face. He said, This is where I reside. I am the lowest of the low. I belong down in the dirt. The cardinal was so moved that he bent down to him and hugged him. Pope Francis, when questioned about homosexual priests, responded with, “Who am I to judge?” The Pope! Isn’t that part of his job? I was astounded. But then I thought, he gets it. He understands humility.

This Should Be So Easy

This should be so easy
They are just words
I can feel them
Pushing
Pinching
Pliable
Too soft to play with
They sound
They keep
They shift
Impale
Perfect
Pitch
They feel
Like paint
They reveal
Like beauty
They save
Said the priest
To his pen
In the end

My Wish

My wish for you is that
One day
You will have a child of your own
And you will understand what
It means to experience that which is
Wondrous and heartrending
At once
To give unconditional love
And receive what is inevitably less
But adequate
That which is lost
When the Golden Rule
Is sacrificed on the altar of procreation